silence

If the whole world would be silent, for a moment so I could let him know how I felt.  I think somewhere inside I imagine when the day comes to make a decision as to where this relationship will go, I imagine if it progresses to seal it with a kiss, since I have never kissed or been kissed, I somehow think time will stop or the world will fall silent.  But that’s probably all in my head.
...Just fantasy child.  It’s not about the kiss, it’s about him, it’s about how he makes your over anxious mind fall silent.  You sleep better, you smile more, and he makes you laugh deep.  You finally feel safe in the arms of someone else, how long it has been.
It would be awesome even if it was all about you, but its not.  Cuz you turn it upside down for him, keep him on his toes, losing his breath, gaining his confidence, laughing, sighing, being afraid and knowing its ok.
And when you stop and look in his eyes it’s as if you have always known him, because you know you see his soul and he sees yours, instead of turning away you hold the stare, barely breathing except when he breathes, and all is silent just as you imagined.    

You think I need you, but I am just fine on my own.
Maybe I thought I needed a change,
maybe I thought you would work for me.
But you're so superficial, so pointless.
Maybe you make me feel beautiful, maybe you are just a cover for my boredom;
I don't want mere entertainment, or superficial change.
I know you wont last long, in a month or two you'll be gone or your straggly remnants will be holding on at the end, and I will wish we had never met.
The stench of your existence lingers long after you are gone like a cigarette smoked yesterday, I try and wash it away, but its still there, refusing to abandon me.
I keep repeating the same mistakes over and over, you're all the same--Never really changing me.

Memory(sing it like CATS--if you can remember that)

I think about alzheimer's everyday as I put anti-perspirant on, I think, "wow this is one less memory I am going to have," do I really care if I am going to stink more than I care about losing my mind? There have been links to aluminum and alzheimer's, and here we are applying something directly to our skin everyday that's active ingredient is a form of aluminum that is supposed to absorb into your pores. So if I ever smell bad, I just thought that it was a day was worth remembering.

Peanuts anyone?

When I was a kid, I didn't know anybody was allergic to peanuts. I took peanut butter and jelly sandwiches to school all the time. I never saw someone rushed to the hospital with anaphylactic shock.
so where did this hysteria come from. Are my kids never going to get to enjoy a nice PB&J sandwich(the road trip food of choice)at school because one of their classmates has the dreaded peanut allergy.
where did it come from. I mean people have always been allergic to nuts. So is the government adding stuff to our food (genetic engineering, chemicals, etc.) so that our bodies learn to reject this jimmy carter, George Washington carver wonder?
It seems to be a recent phenomenon, so what aren't they telling us. Why would our bodies on such a large scale start rejecting "a protein" hmm makes you wonder?
Or maybe like SARS, West Nile, Mad Cow, its just a pretend epidemic, by the media? WHAT DO THEY HAVE AGAINST PEANUTS?!?