The art of transition
Wow it's been amazingly crazy lately. But today is going better than yesterday. I was exhausted and running on caffeine. SO I was grumpy and jittery all at the same time. Yesterday I got to go to church, which was awesome. I love my church. They asked if anyone needed prayer and I figure we all do, so I didn't hesitate to raise my hand. There is so much junk in my life, in my thoughts, in my actions and sometimes there are things that cannot be expressed in words. Thoughts and feelings that can only be spoken through the heart and a direct connection with God. I am very thankful we have that in Christ, and very thankful for a church that encourages members to pray for each other--sounds elementary but there are so many churches that miss the mark.
My heart has been especially heavy for my friends recently. Many of them are just leaving home and attempting to exert independence. Which is a very painful process. Its hard to get through, I have been there, I know its hard for the parents to, I cannot say in all the ways because I believe its deeper emotions than I can understand yet, since I am not a parent. I also have friends that have just moved away from home for the first time and are in college. They have so many new things. Its all exciting and they are trying to balance social and academics and missing home. Many of my friends are also just out of school looking for a job in their field of study, finding out that no matter how hard you studied, it doesn't guarantee you a job, and it sometimes means starting over at the bottom, getting paid minimum wage. I am dealing with that too. I have friends that are feeling stuck and are constantly fighting battles within themselves to do the right thing, gosh I know what that's like. Some of my other friends are getting engaged and married, which is so exciting and cool, but also a time of huge transition.
The more I look at it, the more I realize that this transition never stops. Constantly changing and moving (hopefully in a forward motion--oh Relient K-- "Forward Motion" "cuz forward motion is harder than it sounds every time I gain some ground I gotta turn myself around again...") I guess that's why God is so amazing, He can and does remain the same in an ever changing world. He's the one thing we can count on to always be the same. Hebrews 13:8, Malachi 3:6, to name a few.
As for yesterday I was a monster. I spazed at one kid, I really didn't want the cucumber in my face. Normally it would have been a funny thing. But yesterday I was so tired and stressed all at the same time, I couldn't handle the sensory overload at the youth Christmas party. However, I did go home with a sweet palm tree neon light, and the gift I gave of Relient K was the most coveted. I am better today. I was also upset because I left my cake at home, I spent my only free time Saturday afternoon baking a cake when I really needed a nap, then I forgot it at home on the kitchen counter. I was very upset, combine that with sensory overload and a no-touchy-lack-of-personal-space-kinda-day, overtired, overstressed and caffeinated--and you have me. I am not making excuses, but those were contributing facts to my behavior. Sorry if I upset anyone.
To leave on a lighter note, I will share something that Rebecca and I thought of last night. If a bee had allergies, would he get hives? LOL!! Ha ha. Ok maybe it doesn't seem as funny today, but it was hilarious last night. Almost as funny as the survivor finale, with the host cutting through the bush with a machete and jumping out of airplanes--very over dramatic and cheesy--I hope you all saw it.
My heart has been especially heavy for my friends recently. Many of them are just leaving home and attempting to exert independence. Which is a very painful process. Its hard to get through, I have been there, I know its hard for the parents to, I cannot say in all the ways because I believe its deeper emotions than I can understand yet, since I am not a parent. I also have friends that have just moved away from home for the first time and are in college. They have so many new things. Its all exciting and they are trying to balance social and academics and missing home. Many of my friends are also just out of school looking for a job in their field of study, finding out that no matter how hard you studied, it doesn't guarantee you a job, and it sometimes means starting over at the bottom, getting paid minimum wage. I am dealing with that too. I have friends that are feeling stuck and are constantly fighting battles within themselves to do the right thing, gosh I know what that's like. Some of my other friends are getting engaged and married, which is so exciting and cool, but also a time of huge transition.
The more I look at it, the more I realize that this transition never stops. Constantly changing and moving (hopefully in a forward motion--oh Relient K-- "Forward Motion" "cuz forward motion is harder than it sounds every time I gain some ground I gotta turn myself around again...") I guess that's why God is so amazing, He can and does remain the same in an ever changing world. He's the one thing we can count on to always be the same. Hebrews 13:8, Malachi 3:6, to name a few.
As for yesterday I was a monster. I spazed at one kid, I really didn't want the cucumber in my face. Normally it would have been a funny thing. But yesterday I was so tired and stressed all at the same time, I couldn't handle the sensory overload at the youth Christmas party. However, I did go home with a sweet palm tree neon light, and the gift I gave of Relient K was the most coveted. I am better today. I was also upset because I left my cake at home, I spent my only free time Saturday afternoon baking a cake when I really needed a nap, then I forgot it at home on the kitchen counter. I was very upset, combine that with sensory overload and a no-touchy-lack-of-personal-space-kinda-day, overtired, overstressed and caffeinated--and you have me. I am not making excuses, but those were contributing facts to my behavior. Sorry if I upset anyone.
To leave on a lighter note, I will share something that Rebecca and I thought of last night. If a bee had allergies, would he get hives? LOL!! Ha ha. Ok maybe it doesn't seem as funny today, but it was hilarious last night. Almost as funny as the survivor finale, with the host cutting through the bush with a machete and jumping out of airplanes--very over dramatic and cheesy--I hope you all saw it.
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