"The Usual"
My whole life I have had this irrational fear that I will become predictable. In my mind this is synonymous with boring. My dad is one of those people that goes to the same restaurant everyday for lunch, and orders the exact same thing. I guess it's easy for him, he never has to look at the menu, and its easy for the restaurant because they have a heads up on what he's going to order.
I have spent a great deal of my thoughts and energy on trying not to be predictable, I try to order different things when I go out to eat. I want people to know me, and know what I want, but I don't think it has to be the same thing all the time.
I would even go as far as parking in a different parking space at work, I mean I always park in the same section, otherwise I would lose my car, but sometimes I park 2 spaces from the last and sometimes on the right rather than the left. I was careful to park in a different place everyday. Then I realized I was becoming too predictable in my predictability, so I would have to work on the change-up. Like a good pitcher, throw a couple of the same and then suddenly switch it to a slow pitch by parking on the other side of the row.
although as I do things more and more I realize there is a certain sanity in being predictable, you know what you want and you have a reason for the things you are doing. I can be totally insane and park at the other side of the mall from where I need to go just to be spontaneous, but that's just stupid. All this occurred to me because I order the same turkey chipotle wrap at Katie's pretzels everyday I eat there, turkey, provalone cheese, sun dried tomatoes, cucumbers, pepper, onions, lettuce and sauce, together with a large sweet tea. The manager, Steve, knows that I work at the portrait studio, he knows I come in everyday about 11, he knows exactly what I want on my wrap. Is this predictable? Maybe, but should I change what I like just to try and be different?
Its true different can be good and I want to be careful not to let what I like, to prevent me from trying new things. I want to explore a little bit, it took some time and some recommendations to figure out what I wanted on my wrap, Why do I park at the very last space in the row, so I can get more exercise. But if its a rainy day or I am running late, I am not going to park at the end just because I always do. I think there needs to be a balance of spontaneity and predictability. I am not sure how to do that yet, I may have to keep trying and keep ordering my "usual."
I have spent a great deal of my thoughts and energy on trying not to be predictable, I try to order different things when I go out to eat. I want people to know me, and know what I want, but I don't think it has to be the same thing all the time.
I would even go as far as parking in a different parking space at work, I mean I always park in the same section, otherwise I would lose my car, but sometimes I park 2 spaces from the last and sometimes on the right rather than the left. I was careful to park in a different place everyday. Then I realized I was becoming too predictable in my predictability, so I would have to work on the change-up. Like a good pitcher, throw a couple of the same and then suddenly switch it to a slow pitch by parking on the other side of the row.
although as I do things more and more I realize there is a certain sanity in being predictable, you know what you want and you have a reason for the things you are doing. I can be totally insane and park at the other side of the mall from where I need to go just to be spontaneous, but that's just stupid. All this occurred to me because I order the same turkey chipotle wrap at Katie's pretzels everyday I eat there, turkey, provalone cheese, sun dried tomatoes, cucumbers, pepper, onions, lettuce and sauce, together with a large sweet tea. The manager, Steve, knows that I work at the portrait studio, he knows I come in everyday about 11, he knows exactly what I want on my wrap. Is this predictable? Maybe, but should I change what I like just to try and be different?
Its true different can be good and I want to be careful not to let what I like, to prevent me from trying new things. I want to explore a little bit, it took some time and some recommendations to figure out what I wanted on my wrap, Why do I park at the very last space in the row, so I can get more exercise. But if its a rainy day or I am running late, I am not going to park at the end just because I always do. I think there needs to be a balance of spontaneity and predictability. I am not sure how to do that yet, I may have to keep trying and keep ordering my "usual."
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