get yourself a mood ring
The weekend is over. To some that may be very depressing but to me it was music to my ears. See this weekend wasn't exactly wonderful. The events leading up to the weekend really made it rough.
Thursday I blew a tire on my car while pulling up to a friends house, so I spent all afternoon getting that fixed, the bright side of it is that my amazing friends paid for it. But I was tired and stressed.
The next thing happened Friday, my dad decided that I had left my stuff in the wrong place too many times and he thought he'd "talk" to me about it. I had gone to walmart that day to try and get some stuff and ended up coming home later than I had anticipated, so I am rushing around the house trying to get ready for work, and he yells at me for leaving my plate on the counter in the kitchen rather than putting it in the sink, I thought I had done alright with the plate making it to the kitchen from my room. Then I had put the clean laundry from the dryer on the couch so I could put my stuff in the dryer,and he yelled at me for not putting it in the basket and then for having my stuff in the basket for a week. It was ridiculous, but I was already tired and emotional so it just didn't help.
when I got to work at 7 o clock and it turns out I was supposed to be there at 6:30, so I am going to get written up for being late. I checked everything and everything said 7-11 and I was supposed to work 6:30-12. The weird thing is I went back yesterday and checked everything again and it all said 6:30-12 and I remember showing it to someone saying 7-11 so I dunno what happened I am really confused.(welcome to the twilight zone)
But that night at work, my whole day had been thrown off, I had missed the youth outing for work and a few of them said they might stop by and visit me at work, and I was really hoping they would, but they didn't. I was just really tired, really stressed, and really emotional, and it was all I had within me to not cry. I spilled a bunch of stuff, I kept knocking over lids and cups and doing things wrong. I said a few words that I don't ever say lightly, words that would get my mouth washed out with soap. I also found out that I have like no hours this week for work--like 15, I need 20 a week for 2 months to get my benefits, which I desperately need.
So I spent the weekend recovering from the stressful and emotional disaster of my life, and thinking about being written up and how bad that is for me wanting to progress in the company.
So yesterday I sat down and had a chat with my manager, about the business, and my hours, and my write-up and moving to a new store, and a follow up on the conversation she had with me a couple of weeks ago. I didn't get written up after all which was a relief to me. I guess someone I worked with had mentioned that I didn't respond to them. Well I took it to mean that I was ignoring people. Turns out I wasn't. They were upset because when asked to do something I would do it, and I wouldn't say anything about it or acknowledge it. I am still trying to figure out how that's a problem. wouldn't you rather have someone that does it but doesn't say anything rather than someone who acknowledges it then doesn't do it? I dunno it doesn't make any kind of sense to me. I guess I learned growing up that there is no reply to some things. When something needs to be done you do it, why hesitate, why say anything, to me that is pointless. So now I have been trying to acknowledge that people have said things, I just say Ok, or Sure. Its almost not saying anything but yet it gives whoever made the initial comment peace of mind. Whatever. So I am doing alright.
I seem to be a little more emotionally stable this week, I pray that it continues. See guys think its rough when girls are all emotional, they don't know what to do about it. Do you think girls know what to do with it either. Its weird, its like it takes over, and you don't know how to handle it.
I did have some good talks with some of my guy friends this weekend about emotions and how important it is to deal with them in a healthy way. I learned some stuff too, so that was cool.
Last night I chatted for a couple of hours with my friend Kevin through a pair of headphones, because I had no microphone. (very weird setup-just shake your head and laugh as you imagine.) we were on this new program called skype, its a free voice over IP thingy, it worked pretty well actually, except I was having microphone trouble. It was good to laugh though, and to have my friend laugh with me. I miss that a lot some days. I didn't feel much like talking last night, some days I just prefer to type than to talk but it was good for me.
well I should go get my oil changed, Tuesday is ladies day so I get a discount. I might just take it down to Higher Standard. So I can visit my friends.
Thursday I blew a tire on my car while pulling up to a friends house, so I spent all afternoon getting that fixed, the bright side of it is that my amazing friends paid for it. But I was tired and stressed.
The next thing happened Friday, my dad decided that I had left my stuff in the wrong place too many times and he thought he'd "talk" to me about it. I had gone to walmart that day to try and get some stuff and ended up coming home later than I had anticipated, so I am rushing around the house trying to get ready for work, and he yells at me for leaving my plate on the counter in the kitchen rather than putting it in the sink, I thought I had done alright with the plate making it to the kitchen from my room. Then I had put the clean laundry from the dryer on the couch so I could put my stuff in the dryer,and he yelled at me for not putting it in the basket and then for having my stuff in the basket for a week. It was ridiculous, but I was already tired and emotional so it just didn't help.
when I got to work at 7 o clock and it turns out I was supposed to be there at 6:30, so I am going to get written up for being late. I checked everything and everything said 7-11 and I was supposed to work 6:30-12. The weird thing is I went back yesterday and checked everything again and it all said 6:30-12 and I remember showing it to someone saying 7-11 so I dunno what happened I am really confused.(welcome to the twilight zone)
But that night at work, my whole day had been thrown off, I had missed the youth outing for work and a few of them said they might stop by and visit me at work, and I was really hoping they would, but they didn't. I was just really tired, really stressed, and really emotional, and it was all I had within me to not cry. I spilled a bunch of stuff, I kept knocking over lids and cups and doing things wrong. I said a few words that I don't ever say lightly, words that would get my mouth washed out with soap. I also found out that I have like no hours this week for work--like 15, I need 20 a week for 2 months to get my benefits, which I desperately need.
So I spent the weekend recovering from the stressful and emotional disaster of my life, and thinking about being written up and how bad that is for me wanting to progress in the company.
So yesterday I sat down and had a chat with my manager, about the business, and my hours, and my write-up and moving to a new store, and a follow up on the conversation she had with me a couple of weeks ago. I didn't get written up after all which was a relief to me. I guess someone I worked with had mentioned that I didn't respond to them. Well I took it to mean that I was ignoring people. Turns out I wasn't. They were upset because when asked to do something I would do it, and I wouldn't say anything about it or acknowledge it. I am still trying to figure out how that's a problem. wouldn't you rather have someone that does it but doesn't say anything rather than someone who acknowledges it then doesn't do it? I dunno it doesn't make any kind of sense to me. I guess I learned growing up that there is no reply to some things. When something needs to be done you do it, why hesitate, why say anything, to me that is pointless. So now I have been trying to acknowledge that people have said things, I just say Ok, or Sure. Its almost not saying anything but yet it gives whoever made the initial comment peace of mind. Whatever. So I am doing alright.
I seem to be a little more emotionally stable this week, I pray that it continues. See guys think its rough when girls are all emotional, they don't know what to do about it. Do you think girls know what to do with it either. Its weird, its like it takes over, and you don't know how to handle it.
I did have some good talks with some of my guy friends this weekend about emotions and how important it is to deal with them in a healthy way. I learned some stuff too, so that was cool.
Last night I chatted for a couple of hours with my friend Kevin through a pair of headphones, because I had no microphone. (very weird setup-just shake your head and laugh as you imagine.) we were on this new program called skype, its a free voice over IP thingy, it worked pretty well actually, except I was having microphone trouble. It was good to laugh though, and to have my friend laugh with me. I miss that a lot some days. I didn't feel much like talking last night, some days I just prefer to type than to talk but it was good for me.
well I should go get my oil changed, Tuesday is ladies day so I get a discount. I might just take it down to Higher Standard. So I can visit my friends.
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