Just because there are options does not necessarily mean you should choose any of them--I am the only one who believes this? Thanks for the rock I was already at a hard place, I'm so glad you are so encouraging in this way. Thanks for helping me make the wrong decision. I know what I need, thanks for making me feel like an idiot 50 times over by pretending that this is something you are surprised I actually understand. And maybe this is for the best. Try to live with the decisions I make ok? If you are going to let me fall let me fall already, so I can stop wondering when. So I can get to putting the pieces back together already. Oh and for you thanks for allowing me to cease to exist in your life, I am not going to hold onto this anymore, lets just let it die ok? After all everybody else seems to be able to leave it behind, you aren't the first or the last. I am so glad that you are able to share with your family how well I am doing, after all its about time I grew up eh? Here's where I could insert a personal attack but here's where I don't because I care about you and I just wish you'd stop hurting me. Here's where I cry because I am so frustrated thinking about me, just when I start to get out of that you have to make sure I don't. This is the part where I wish I could just vomit and flush and it would all be over.