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Well it’s been another crazy time.  I can’t believe how old I have gotten.  When did all this happen?  I have been thinking back to the past few years and looking at where I've been and what I’ve done.  Things have been pretty crazy.  In the last year I’ve managed to have 3 jobs, been to at least 7 different states, out of the country once.  I’ve grown closer to some friends and drifted apart from others.  Now I am embarking on a new experience, I am starting a new job at something I’ve never done before.  I’m moving to a new place, which is yet to be decided.  I have new members of my family and new members being added soon.  I’ve been diving in to the lives of the people around me sharing in their joys and hardships.  I can’t say this has been fun, in terms of what I used to think was fun.  In college I had fun, irresponsible impetuous fun.  But this is different, this is more organized and more steady more day to day.  It’s all together different.  It’s changing who I am and that’s a good thing.  I think I am becoming less selfish and more grounded.  I am learning to trust in the only giver and sustainer of life and his faithfulness for the journey.  I have been in some pretty lonely and rough places and just learning to seek God’s face and make the right decisions when everyone was telling me to do the contrary, and on the decisions where I failed, just find the love in forgiveness and being able to start new.
I still have much to learn, and this journey is far from over.  I just hope that I will be able to do justly, love mercy, and walk humbly with my God.  That I will live each day overcoming the fear that controls me and learning to address my weaknesses, first to my savior, and second to those that will keep me accountable.  I want to carry others burdens, not because of a duty or service, but because I love them, and the love of Christ lives in me and I want that love to be so deep and strong that it flows out of every thought and action in my life.  I want that for you too.
And when I stumble, I want you to be there, to lift me up in prayer and to help me get back to where I need to be, to sharpen me in the truth, as iron sharpens iron.  To show me a different way to think, and a different way to respond, that I may bring glory and honor to our father in heaven.
And yes I am way too spiritual on this, but this is right where I need to be.  I want to look back on this part of my life and say, I had a fun time, I was right where I was supposed to be and this is how it all worked out, and it was all God.  Like this job, I have been praying for, for over a year, and its here.  And God is good. The answer was coming and it couldn’t have been at a better time.  I am praying for many more things and eagerly waiting to see what God is going to do, now all I need is patience!